This weekend I have stocked up on alcohol free beer. Yum! It tastes the same, and I am loving the alcohol free strawberry and Lime cider, and the alcohol free gin, which tastes just like gin!!!! Who knew you could have drinks without getting drunk. Huge plus in my books.
The last few days have been a bit trying, and I have had the demon on my shoulder whispering sweet nothings about taking the edge off, after a stressful day just have the one and imagine how good it will feel. Now these thoughts are not always there, but they pop up at the most random times and almost take my breath away sometimes when they are overwhelming.
Earlier I opened the kitchen draw and saw the scissors and that led me to think about cutting. I haven't had a thought like that in ages. I was looking for a torch!
My anxiety has been really high the last few days with a bit of stress thrown in for fun too. ~But I am proud to say I have stood firm and not given in to the demon on my shoulder. I am not necessarily enjoying waking up in the morning, after all it is winter, and it's dark and cold outside {I have never really been a morning person}, but my insomnia has been better, I am sleeping more than 4 hours a night which is amazing, I wake up with energy instead of feeling foggy and nauseous, and I am not shouting at my son first thing in the morning, well just not every morning maybe!
I have been on a medication that has the side effects of causing your feet to swell. My feet were so swollen I had to go out and buy bigger shoes, I blamed the medication for months. Since I stopped drinking they have slowly gone down and are almost back to normal. So it was the alcohol causing my edema, and not the medication. I am looking forward to discovering more benefits while I am on this journey.
All in all a few wobbly days, but I am holding out and trying to beat that demon on my shoulder!
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