A lot of different people recommend naming your inner demon, you know the one that encourages you to drink, and happily pushes an agenda when you try and be good. The one that says tonight will be different, we really will only have one drink, and you have great intentions to only have the one. Once you become addicted though, that one is never enough.
I remember talking recently with a friend and I was amazed at how she can go out and have a couple of drinks and then stop, she was equally amazed when I admitted that I struggle to stop, no matter how drunk I get. There is the inner demon saying go on, just one more won't matter.
The alcohol demon sits on your shoulder and begs you to give in, not every day, but often enough. It is particularly vocal when you are anxious, having a bad day, or have had a busy today. Tonight is one of those nights. It wasn't the best day, my anxiety is really high and I would like nothing more than a glass of wine/prosecco to dampen the anxiety down. It would never be just the one glass though, I would land up buying two bottles just in case, and would probably drink both if not 1 and a half bottles.
So tonight I am going to say screw you, and I am going to take my medication as prescribed, and I am going to shower and go to bed after a non alcoholic beer or two.
I still don't have a name yet, will have to think up one overnight!
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